In all honesty, I am not sure what to write this week. My cold is still not better, actually worse again end of week with temperature and all. The kids aren’t well, we just don’t seem to be able to shake off those winter bugs.
But we are well. In comparison at least. I have been thinking about things. If you have a roof over your head and food on the table, you are better off than most people in this world. A friend was diagnosed with cancer, another has cancer in his family, another is on holidays at a fancy destination and my friend who is depressive and I should really catch up….f@ he’ll. No offence guys, what’s happening?
I guess I have a big heart, I love and want to help everyone. Above isn’t meant to be complaining, no it is to give you, as a reader, the insight into my emotional life. Balancing that with the ongoing search for happiness, constant push to outperform at work…life can be daunting, couldn’t it?
But it isn’t. Life is actually darn good! I have a roof over my head, food on the table and an amazing wife which I absolutely love. My rock, my balancing weight, my support, my benchmark, my fun, my life really. I am a very dedicated family man, love my wife and kids to bits and this is and will always be my main focus. No matter what, no compromise.
But because my wife is as great as she is, I started dedicating so much time to others. Helping others is such a great part of my life. I might actually step this up a notch soon too. I just was voted assistant secretary in my Rotary Club for next year. Not the biggest move, yet a big part of what I believe in: helping others, raising funds for others and making other people’s life a bit better.
There is no place like home they say. There is no place like being able to give beyond your means, not from a financial but involvement point of view. No greater gift than lying in bed at night thinking how, if small, you have improved someone’s life. For me this is the greatest inner satisfaction.
Just whilst typing these sentences I look around. I am on a train yet again, listening to Newton Faulkner (that might explain my sentimental outlook this week). Couples kissing, sitting next to each other smiling, people hanging on to their thoughts, looking like they are stressed, reading the paper or trying to frantically getting reception on their phone.
Yes, they all have their own story, life, death. Their own parcel to carry, their own burden.
You know what I did this week? I still had holidays to take this year and all my meetings for Friday got postponed. So I took that day off. I took the kids to school, went I to town for a lunch with a close friend who I admittedly didn’t spend enough time with over the past few months, and I just enjoyed myself, wandering around the shops, chilling out. Uninterrupted “me time”. I let go and had fun, just in time to be home for bath time. I loved it. I was beaming. I needed it.
I guess this post is very reflective, on my emotional state, and my thoughts on what’s happening in this world. The year draws to a close, I reflect. This year has been an up and down but overall it is up. As always, I see the positive in small things, and I am a very positive person!
Not long till Christmas now. Have a great last week. I cannot wait for the kids’ nativity plays and hugs, kisses and stories from them. Life is great. And you, my friends, the ones I mentioned initially, you will be fine. I will help where I can.