I am starting this week by explaining the day I had today, Tuesday. For the past few weeks I have had a cold, thought I had overcome it, when I came back from a client meeting feeling rubbish. It hit me. Paracetamol and Ibuprofen later I feel like sleeping and cancel my evening meeting with a good friend. I then manage to leave the office early to find myself on a tube. Overcrowding. London Bridge station shut. Overcrowded train to Victoria. Sweating, tired, exhausted. London Victoria station shut due to overcrowding. Open again. I press myself on a train with plenty of space inside yet no one moves down. Clapham Junction. A seat. By that time I was very exhausted (whinge) and as a result worked half ill from home the next day, was ill the following day and only felt better on Friday. Of course I worked normal again on Friday, felt worse again on Saturday, ok-ish on Sunday. What’s happening?
I believe I have discussed that before. We don’t really take time off anymore when we are ill. I have been pushing myself for a while and should have taken time off a few weeks ago but instead taking it a bit easier, working from home, yet ending up doing the same amount of work just not physically in the office. Silly. Luckily my boss understood, or not actually, and told me to get better, stay at home and be fit again next week. He is right. Good to have good bosses. Yet I find it difficult to let go, too much work, want to pull my weight and lots of things I need to get done. Nevermind, I seem better now. Fingers crossed this will last this time. And enough whinging!
Sometimes I think I am in a film. Not only with those colds and stuff but also with the above tube and train journeys. I don’t think anyone has thought of a movie called the “commuters nightmare” yet. That day it took me an hour from the office to a train. Then another hour home. I had some comfort food and an early night. Did I mention it was only Tuesday? The commute in London is getting worse as more people are moving to London and then, as they have family, move further out. Whilst I am unlucky tonight, if you followed my tweets, I am waiting for a few delay repay claims to arrive. Trains are catastrophic lately: signalling problems, overrunning engineering works etc. When we moved further out it never crossed my mind. We are on the main line to Brighton and Gatwick airport. Surely this is a priority line. Maybe not, or are other lines even worse?
I am not sure why those problems exist in the first place. Poor management with only one peak hour train to London Bridge? Poor management of train capacities, putting smaller capacity trains on at the wrong time? Old equipment? And all that for just under £450 per month. That is a lot of money! Particularly if think of the service you are getting. Appalling to be honest. Some people on twitter suggested to get the Germans in. I don’t actually remember it being so much better, yet more people drive and hence the trains are less crowded. But that might just be my perception and maybe it is so much better? Not much they can do here I believe.
Btw, the picture was taken when I was chairing the Admonsters European Publisher Forum in Berlin this year.
Anyway, let’s focus on positive points this week. I published my first article on MediaPost Publications. The aim is to have a monthly column there. Thanks to Admonsters I have been looking into 2nd screens and their modelling lately, a fascinating topic allowing for some early adopters to really put their name out there with their technology. That and topics like viewability and view through attribution are still not solved, even years on. Brand Safety is on the agenda too.
Another positive thing was me being at home, if ill. I got to see the boys a bit more and realise how much they miss me and want to be with me. How much they enjoy me reading the good night story. And I learn to prioritise them over my work and work in the evenings after they went to bed instead. Servicing Central Europe, I started with an 8 am demo on Friday, took the boys to school, and finished in time for the Hassocks Light Up. The kids loved the lights and afterwards the dads met for some pints in the local. I tried to cut it short, still overcoming my man flu.
The weekend was the usual but again I kept myself wrapped up, concentrating on getting better. Next week is big. I have three busy weeks ahead of me. Lots happening at work.
Now this week’s blog had a theme I suppose. Work, work life balance and commute. A bit sad maybe…..yet that is life sometimes.
Have a great one,
I am sorry I sneaked out of the house at 7.10 to catch my overcrowded train to work. I didn’t want to wake you up as you need your sleep, your energy to go to school. When I woke up, trying yet another “sunlight alarm” app, it was too early for you. I was afraid of waking you and you coming downstairs to watch me exercise. Your brain must process so much at the minute, constant learning, constantly something new. You say you enjoy school, yet I sometimes wish to be able to explain meditation to you, calming your mind. I still explain it to myself daily. There is so much more I want to teach you too. But one thing at a time.
I heard you coughing throughout the night. I felt for you, I was awake myself a bit with this awful cough. It still tickles me whilst I for once got a seat on the train, being able to write the weekly Sunday column. I know you wanted to come down to see Daddy when you woke up. It was too late as Daddy needed to shower and get ready for work. Mummy changed your leaking nappy, you kicked a fuss because you didn’t get your PJ trousers back on. One day you also will laugh at your way of being so particular. It doesn’t help me telling you that in the greater scale of things, PJ trousers just don’t matter.
Just one of many mornings start like that. The desire to spend 10 or 30 minutes with you guys, realising that sometimes I just cannot. This is me running late or you getting up late. Either way. Things are as they are. The picture below nicely points out: the now isn’t a constant, the best things are yet to come. The future is still ahead of you. Even I, who I am now 36, will not be where I am now. My life is still evolving, whilst I hope and anticipate to still be in my current job in 4 years time, I am already thinking what my next steps could be. What do 40 year olds do? Of course I am not seriously thinking about it, yet the thought of being that age scares me at times. I will be doing another job, and 40 isn’t that old. A new beginning, a new dawn, life goes on, or at least we hope so, for another few years at least. Then again, who knows. Things might just turn out to be a lot different than anticipated.
Writing this, I get reminded of conversations I had this week. About a man who had twins and hardly slept the past four months. About a man having to cope with family illnesses. We all have to cope with something. I cope or do not cope with lack of sleep and exercise this week. I am shattered. I managed one good run and then had two rough nights, leaving me tired out, shattered. Of course I am coping, just. I would like to get this feeling back of being rested. Being fully charged. Will I ever? At least I found a great new app, “moves”, which is a pedometer and a journal of your day’s movements. I am hooked on it. Another run. Too much junk food to cope, to comfort. I am NOT getting back into an old bad lifestyle routine, yet it is easy to do 🙁
Anyway, with my parents having been over and us going for walks with the boys, it is fantastic to think what we have achieved so far. In life, in general. We live in a big enough house with walking distance to the great outdoors, a short drive to the sea, as rural and quiet as you can only wish for. I stopped for a minute the other day and took it all in. A life and situation I am truly grateful for. Life and the opportunities, the small wonders, are fascinating. Being able to realise the small things, being happy on our own accounts with what we have, is great. I do not demand a lot from life, do I? It must be the Buddhist roots but it seems, whilst if did develop an aptitude for trainers recently, that I only buy what I need or really want these days. And it doesn’t seem that much, possession wise, that I am attracted to. Then again it depends who you compare yourself to I suppose.
How will life change from the present moment? We never know until it does. However, if I envisage my life a year from now, I somewhat get the feeling it will be better. More in the flow of things at work, whilst more stressful, yet busier at home. Let me be surprised. It’s good we cannot plan too much in advance.
The weather turned a lot colder this week. It feels like we are moving towards winter. I did my job talk at Rotary this week. I am finalising a few projects. Whilst on the outside it looks like I am getting ready for a winter’s rest, I am on fire on the inside. Watch this space.
Bring it on!
Have a good one,
What a week. I know I keep saying that but it seems like one week tops another 🙁
A virus infection of some sort slowed me down Monday and Tuesday, and Thursday and Friday I had the man-flu. So I only went to the gym, or better say a swim, once this week. That disappoints me a bit but I shouldn’t exaggerate things.
However, on the business side of things, it was a successful week with lots of meetings, positive noises and lots of interest. The next two weeks are already fully booked with conferences, meetings and work related stuff. But I enjoy it. Truly do (Sacha, I mean it!)
My dad turned 67 this week (sorry for revealing your age), and we picked up a Volvo XC90 this week, guess that makes me almost as old as him – but not as wise of course 🙂
The car is great. My mother in law, my wife and boy went down to Rye on Saturday, and it was like driving a proper car. You can see the road, enjoy the heated seats, and it is just a comfortable trip. The 19.4 mpg are a bit too much, but we don’t drive too often, do we?
On Sunday, Valentines day, I got my wife these two ducks I was writing about the other day. And, of course, some roses. Some roses that could swim in the bath and double up as candles.
Sunday we planned to have a really relaxed day. However, I got food poising from the crab roll or prawn Jalfrezi. I was still sick in the afternoon, and didn’t feel well all day, so think that I will not be back in the gym as of tomorrow.
Have a great week.